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I am starting a new chapter in my life and well I feel like my time here on this good blog has come to an end....

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A lot has happened since the last time I wrote.

I understand that this point in my life, it is the time where everyone gets married. I am excited for them and I am so happy that I get to be apart of my friends' special day. I bought my bridesmaid dress and woot I am excited and I feel honored that Melissa wants me to stand with her on her special day.

Of course... I think about what my wedding is going to be like. Who will be standing with me? What will my colors be? Will my dad cry when he walks me down the aisle? and the most important question of all.... Who will be my husband? I get so giddy thinking about him and the amazing life that we are going to have together. I think about all of the fun things that we are going to do together. All of the fun places in the world that we are going to get to go. I wonder about where we are going to live.

I dream too much.

6 weeks from today I will be considered a college graduate. That scares me. The unexpected is so exciting but not when I don't have a job in crappy economic times. But I am so excited and I know that my parents are going to be so proud of me because I will be the first to graduate from college. :)

Some more random thoughts...

It is almost April and there is a HUGE snowstorm headed towards H-town. ANOTHER reason why I don't want to live in Missouri... the weather is SOOOOO unpredictable!!!!

Ok that's all....

5 more years?

Tomorrow is my birthday and I am turning 22. 

I know that 22 is not old but man I feel like I am getting old and I don't want to get old. I think that I would like to stay 21 the age for a while. 

I was talking to one of my roommates and telling her about how my stepmom died when she was 27. When Lori turned 22 did she think to herself, I might only live 5 more years? I have been thinking about that a lot. She got married when she was 25 and then lived for 2 years after that. It just seems crazy to think that she was only 5 years older than I am right now when she died.

I hope that if the Lord decides to take me in 5 years, that I will have glorified him in all things. I want to hear the words from him, "Well done my good and faithful servant."

Just something to think about...

What do you think???

I was reading a friend's blog yesterday and her post was about God, imagine that....

Well in her post she made a very good point. Do you think that God gives us more than we can handle? It is not in the Bible but it does talk about temptation...

I looked it up in the Bible and it says: And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. 1 Corinthians 10:13

I know many people think that it is a verse in the Bible. The verse that says that God will not give us more than we can handle.

What do you think? Do you think that God will give us more than we can handle?

Let's talk about it....

Changes...

Within the past week, I have experienced many changes both happy and sad.

One of those changes I never thought would ever happen. I guess that is just how naive I am. I always think positive happy thoughts and WAYYYYY to far ahead into the future. I need to learn to not do that because my heart gets broken even more. Hurt. I am hurting. I ask that you pray for me. I have a hole in my heart right now and I need some encouragement. I want to fill that huge hole in my heart with the love of God because He will NEVER leave me or forsake me. He will always be by my side. 

Engagement. Well... everyone and their mother is getting engaged. I am so excited for all of these engagements and I am so excited to see what the future holds for these wonderful couples. I am not being bitter... because I DO NOT want to be engaged right now. That TOTALLY freaks me out!

Schooling. I started student teaching and woah buddy, 6 AM comes earlier than I ever thought that it would. I'm not a big fan of getting up that early. I guess I will have to learn to become one. I miss being at HLG all day long. I miss my wonderful random naps. Ohh they were so amazing. I miss being done with class at noon and then having the afternoon to veg. :( AND... I will admit... I miss chapel, it is the prime opportunity to see everyone on campus. I miss Randall and getting to go to his office. Well.. at least he didn't leave town because I would be oober sad. I am looking forward to an amazing American Idol season. :)

Prayers would be wonderful as well as any type of encouragement.

New Year... New Goals...

I thought that I should start this post with a prayer from an unknown author....

"A new year is unfolding—like a blossom with petals curled tightly concealing the beauty within.
Lord, let this year be filled with the things that are truly good—with the comfort of warmth in our relationships, with the strength to help those who need our help and the humility and openness to accept help from others.
As we make our resolutions for the year ahead, let us go forward with great hope that all things can be possible—with Your help and guidance."

This is my prayer for the new year. That I will truely let my light shine and let God use me in more ways than one.

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One of my wonderful friends has an ongoing list of to do things for the year. I thought that it would be interesting to make one and see what I really do accomplish this year.

* Go to a foreign country
* Get a "real" job
* Keep in contact with college friends
* Lose 15 pounds
* Keep in contact with South Africa friends
* Pay off at least $3000 of my college loans
* Go ice skating
* Go to a state that I have never been to before
* Learn how to drive a manual car
* Go on a road trip with friends
* Join an Bible Study
* Redo my bedroom
* Learn how to make a complete meal
* Graduate college
* Volunteer with an organization

I hope to achieve most of these... but we will see a year from now what I have accomplished. :)

This is a year of many opportunities and I am excited to see what this year unfolds for me.

Senior Year...

Well.. the time has come... Senior Year of College.

Right now I am currently: excited, sad, terrified, feeling adult-like, and stressed.

I didn't think that my senior year would ever come. I thought that I was going to be in college for the rest of my life, borrowing oodles of money to pay for a piece of paper and some knowledge in my brain. Don't get me wrong, I love college. I wished a lot of my college years away because I would talk about how I wanted to be an adult and out on my own. Well.. uh.. now I want to stay in college, learning about how to become a teacher for the rest of my life.

Being a REAL teacher, teaching young children who are depending on the information that you give them, hoping that your students will pass the standardized test at the end of the year. If they don't, then your school is put on "watch" and eeeks, you could lose your job. AHHH!!!

I don't want to grow up. Well I do. I want to get married to the amazing man that God has put before me, but I don't want to have to worry about bills and cooking and being a wife. AHH. I sometimes wish that I could go back to being 7 years old again.

Ok so this is totally random. But here are some things that I love so far about SR year..
* Getting to work in the classroom more often
* Having a boyfriend who loves me oh so much... btw his name is Joe.
* Having homework that keeps me busy... yes. I do like to do homework sometimes. :)
* Hanging out with my wonderful friends.

mmm love. It is wonderful.

love. Mallory